azalea oh azalea

Alahai rindu pula nak balik rumah.
report LI pun tak buat lagi.
SPM pun nak dekat. Saba jelah. Bila aku fikir2 balik, ada baik buruk aku stay ipoh ni.
Yang baiknya, aku happy kerja sini. Takde beban sangat. Kawan2 pun oke. Cuma disadvantage dia, ada laaa. Malas nak cerita sini. Tapi semuanya look quite good. Biasa lah. Hidup. Tak semedangnya indah, bukan? hehe.
Aku cuba kurangkan balik KL supaya tak membazir dan tak memenatkan diri. I trying to adopt in Ipoh. I should fight my feeling and try to study in other place. Ini lah hidup, sayang. Belajar lah selagi aku rasa mampu untuk berjalan dan sihat boleh hidup macam orang lain. Bila lagi kan? Nanti dah kawen, cerita lain lah pulak. Sekarang tengah masuk fasa 'futher studies'.
So, I should understand, life is not too beautiful what I imagine in my fairytales's books.
Sememang Tuhan lebih tahu perjalanan hidup aku. Tuhan menghantar aku kat sini ada hikmah dan tujuan dia.
I trying to be matured more. Tanak main2 macam kanak2 lagi. hehe. Even obviously, that's my real behaviour. Seorang yang sukakan perhatian dari orang disayangi. (;
So, I should understand why Allah give me a wrong friends and a good friends.
I always thinking, wani, fara, bea, ruzie, syaza, zarith, kina and all my besties in school are my friends. Not others. That's my mistakes. I should accept no matter what. Maybe other friends are better than before. Who's know? Frankly speaking, here are not my lifestyle. Im not social, go to clubbing and drink or make love with anybody. Sometimes I was thinking, if I want to do this bloody things, bole sgt. But I still have a iman (: I trying to be a good person and future wife.
And now, I have a new mission. I want to be a great mother someday. I try to learn more about it. InsyaAllah (;